I think I'm pretty good at setting priorities.
I'm less masterful at focusing on what it takes to get the work done.
And when it's getting down to the wire with a deadline looming, and the project is put as the top priority and I know that and even when I think that I've accepted it -- I hate it when my mind goes to all that was put to the side and is not getting done and I start thinking, "Look at this that is not done and that thing that needs work".
Oh why can't I just focus on getting that thing with the deadline done?
Why do I want to fix it all at once and get it done with a snap of the fingers?
Why can't I just learn the art of letting go?
Also nice would be an instant dose of "good enough" and some free passes that accepting second-best is okay too.
At times like these it is glaringly obvious that I guess I did not tame that tiger that goes by the name of Perfectionism. Apparently I'm still afflicted. It's a curse I tell you. Although maybe this post sounds a little humorous believe me there is nothing funny about this issue. I feel like I have a monkey on my back, that I'm like Atlas. I'm bearing a burden that sometimes seems just too heavy and I want to give up on everything since lightening up on one or two things just doesn't seem to do enough.
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As a recovering perfectionist myself, I just wanted to say "Hang in there!"
My most peaceful times have been when I've been able to say and FEEL "I did the best I could and everything is okay."
would you please tell me if thoughs palatal expanders worked and their teeth are nice. my son got one a week ago.
i just tryed to send a comment . it didnt work. i read your kids had palatal expanders. tell me if it worked. my son just got one. thank you
You could be reading my mind! Yesterday, I suddenly noticed EVERYTHING that needed to be done and needed, at that moment, to have EVERYTHING done. I run around in fast, jerky motion, get a few things done, then collapse in exhaustion. I think I know exactly what you mean!
The palatal expanders have worked for both of my kids and so far no bad side effects other than speech alteration and excess saliva production. Both of those seemed to be just in the first weeks and months of treatment.
My older son (now 12.5) we still think will not need braces, he went from the palate expanders to a plain retainer now to a spring wire retainer.
My younger son (now 9.5) is done with the upper palate expander and has braces on his front teeth that have worked excelently so all the upper teeth are in line. He still has the palate expander on the bottom right now.
Do you think maybe the greater light of Spring makes us see details better? I notice cob webs and dust in April.
Somehow, being self aware doesn't make me a kind, balanced person with great priorities. Even praying about it doesn't 'fix' it, there is a lot of deciding how to think, act and evaluate, then slogging - I don't have answers either.
By the way , I'm hosting the Carnival of HOmeschooling this week - please submit a post.
-Christine
LOL Christine. What I see that bothers me is the dust and moreso, the dead ladybugs! We had a record number hibernate somewhere in the house (attic probably) and they have found their way into our windows this late winter and early spring. Every day in front of the south facing windows we have them. Poor things, but gross.
Now the windows are open and the fresh air is streaming in. Soon that will include pollen, and while dusting my cloth will be turned yellow from it....
ah the cycles....
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